Seriously .. after much thinking .. am i that useless ..? even if i were that bad .. i dun really wanna admit that .. why .. why of so much time for me to choose .. and i choose this period of time .. i dun really know wad i am doing recently .. wad i can do or even say right now ..? when we're at the mercy of chers .. and avoiding of parents .. dam .. i cant even face them right now .. and i'm now hiding from them .. i cant even express wad i feel .. juz have that depression look and ppl started to ask why ..

I dun really know wad i can do now .. how will ppl look at me .. the hopes of my parents .. how will they feel ? wad can i achieve ? how am i going to solve the problems ? how am i gonna open my mouth and talk to them .. wad have i done .. i'm so now in a depressed state .. this guy isnt me at all .. i guess .. sometimes .. its retribution .. or maybe i act smart .. who knows ? this obstacle is beyond my limit .. i cant do it .. if i were to retain .. guys , forget me .. signing off ~ 10:43pm ..