I need to do something about this, this is really bothering me. i cant vent my anger nor sadness at anything but only able to vent it all on this blog. i hope that u guys dun ask me anything about this matter but juz keep it to yourself as i'm too sad to bother anymore.

It has been one year and a few months since then. that was the period that i had to hang on and wait as i do not have the courage to face nor talk to her. i guess that was my biggest mistake. it was so foolish of me for not taking the chance before shes attached. i maybe good at other stuffs but not on relationships.

It might be fate, destiny or wadever. but one thing i must say is that, she insisted that she does not have a stead but in the end, i found out she had a stead a couple of months ago. the truth can seriously crush me. maybe i should not have asked my fren to check it out for me. i can prevent myself from getting hurt from this truth.

I cant simply avoid this but this is one truth i must face. but the truth is the truth, someone saw her walking with a tall guy and holding hands. at first i thought he saw the wrong person, but when i show him who i liked, he said its her. another fren helped me find out and the truth is that she had a stead too. and the truth perfectly matches with the person they're talking about.. but i should feel happy that she found someone she liked or loved, but the fact is that she lied to me .. why ?

Why of all guys is him? the guy that i knew when i was sec 1, since then i dun really feel good with him around and hes back for revenge or smth ? anyway i'm too moodless to do anything for now. hope that i'll recover from this useless feeling soon and work my way to the highest.

Last of all, if the girl i liked had past by here, i hoped that u'll be happy with your current stead and all the best. even though i do not really know u well and u do not seem to know me too. but all the best and good luck. hope this matter will get over soon..