Ok, firstly. You talked about birthday again. I knew it all along. But what can I do again ?

Oh, very sorry. & I mean it. I didn't know a birthday was so important to you. But you said to different people holds a different meaning right ? Your birthday is very important. Denise treat her's like a normal day. But sorry, I treated mine as the worst day of my whole year. Simply because ? I'm used to it. My parents doesn't hold a grand celebration for me every year. Or rather, primary 6 was my last celebration that they held. Slowly, I don't give a damn anymore. I'm not you, you're not me. We can't understand each other. So how importantly we treat our birthday are different as well. I don't like a grand celebration. Because i'm so used to being left alone. So I rather be alone for that particular day.

But seriously, if you're not affected by it. Why are you blogging to counter it ? If you didn't care, you won't be doing all this now. Yes yes, excuses. That's a typical thing to be heard when there's a quarrel. But when we're best friends, there's no such things as excuses. Oh, I said it wrongly ?

Gaming & real life. I'm talking about real life here. Do you mean gaming equals to real life ? Sorry no. You're right about me when i'm gaming. But real life ? But when i'm not gaming ? Hah.

Sentosa trip again. Yes yes. I should be abit more thick-skinned & start talking to you. Yes, I should. Even you ignored me I should just keep talking. How am I going to talk to you when you're giving me a don't talk to me face ? Know why I said that ? Simply because during Yingqi's birthday. You're kinda treating me like that. I take some time to blend into the conversation but you ain't talking to me much.

Yes yes. Don't pull other people in already. If you said when you need help. Oh, I didn't help at all for near 3 years of friendship. I'm not always free dude. I've to juggle so much things at one go. All those help that you helped me, I helped you are all gone during quarrels. Yes, they do.

Oh, about her. I treated it more of betrayed than jealousy as I said. No, it's all right that you meet her. But did you at least asked me along as you said last time that meeting alone is like a loner. No, it's all right. I'm cool with it. I didn't said a NO. I'm just wondering. & If you did listen to me long time ago. I told you before, i'll rather the girl be happy isn't it.

When we 3 met. I've already thought of match-making you both. Why ? Because i'm used to being a loner for so long. I don't need this kind of things anymore are what my mind says. So I thought you would be happy with her. & You seemed so happy when she's around. Who knows ? You're giving out the wrong signal. If you listened to me long time ago. Can you recall me telling you that I rather my friends or brothers to be happier ? Maybe, no ? Sorry, i'm those kind of, you happy i'll be happy, kind of friends or brothers.

As for your last paragraph. I didn't even said i'll fall for her. As for the HER. I mentioned above. When we went to bunk & we met her & etc etc. You seemed happy with her around or when we're talking about her. So I thought you'll be happy with her. I did asked her before we even coupled. You can ask her if you want. I asked her if she have any feelings for you. She said no. I asked you, you said no. But the feelings that you're giving me doesn't match with your words. & I asked her near to a million times. Ask her.

If you said i've no feelings for her. Then will I even care when you went out with her. Will I even ask her about you when you both were alone ? Ask her, she knows it. If I didn't care, will I even text her last time & a good night sms every night ? You're telling me ? Oh, all that was an act. You told me that I poured everything to you ? Aren't you the one who asked me to share with you when i've problems & don't keep it to myself ? Now you're complaining. I wasn't prepared dude. Yes, there's no doubt that you both are closer. So yeah. Maybe I could go talk to the wall & share my thoughts with it. Since the wall doesn't complain.

Going out to meet her ? You told me that you don't feel like meeting up. You forgot ? But for the sake of me, you will try to accompany me. I don't need it seriously. If you don't feel like it. Then I don't feel like it. Forgot what I said ? You happy, I happy. It's the same concept. I don't like forcing anyone to go my way. You don't feel like going, I don't feel like too. Whose fault ? Mine.

Oh, now you're talking about ferlyn. Sorry dude. I've given up long ago if you didn't know. Maybe because you're not in my class that's why. I've written a post of giving her up & putting an end to chasing her. Don't believe ? Go check it out. That's when I totally stopped & didn't went to her blog ANYMORE. Nasty isn't it ? It's either july's or august's or september's entry.

Yes yes, the cold war thing. I stopped talking to her. Yes, my fault. I started talking to her & asking how's everything. She replied. Few days later. She didn't. Whose fault ? Yes, mine again. She asked & I explained. She didn't reply after that. Whose fault again ? Yes, mine again. Asked her what're we gonna do now. It's either a don't know or didn't reply. Stop the cold war ? Oh, it's my fault again. Yes, i'm hilarious. No doubt. I've been a joker for 16 years.

Sorry for the sarcastic way of writing.I couldn't resist. Yes, thanks for being a good brother for the 3 years of friendship. It was great. Seriously. I mean it. Let's see if the history repeats again next year. Maybe it's better for you though, because next year, you don't have to come back & see us. Serious, go make new friends. Because they're bound to be better than me. Or maybe more audition friends. You can't be sticking to the secondary school kids already. Because repeating a year suck. We're already of a different batch.

I don't go, oh i'm the bad guy, you're the good guy anymore. Simply because now I go, I suck. Yes, I do suck. So long, my brother. Maybe when I get your words & you get my words. We'll understand the real motive of our actions. Maybe, then we'll see how it goes.

Yes, I still suck. No doubts.