Being a perfectionist myself, I tend to have high demands to myself. But I think I screwed up this year, for some reasons. I couldn't do a simple task like sleeping early.

Adding on, the flunging of my first chemistry test. Yes, even if I did passed, but what's with the marks man. To think that i'm the only one who passed the chemistry test with a pathetic score of 21/40. Followed by the second chemistry test which I think it would be worst. I didn't studied much but I somehow know what's going on. I'm so gonna flung that paper as well. I didn't finish doing that paper somemore. Damn, so much for a perfectionist.

Damn, lunch after school was a venting anger period. Sebas & me ate 2 plates of food and some other stuffs. But still, we can still eat. But the variety of food is always so limited.

Damn, I don't know what's stopping me from writing down the answers man. I'm hesitating to write it down in fear that it might be wrong. The checking of first chemistry test adds on to my attention. I did so many F mistakes man, I don't know why. But i'm able to do them at that particular time.

I feel that, somehow, I can't take it anymore. I can't take in things as easily as last year already. Just that i'm putting a strong front. Do you know that the more pressured or stressed you are, you'll tend to forget things more easily? I think i'm suffering from that right now.

I've been appointed as a peer leader & i'm supposed to coach my classmates during our free time. I think i'm the only one that's taking 3 people in my group man. Tan Wee kiat, Danial, Alex Lim. 3 of them.

Peer leader? I doubt i'll be able to do it. Just hope that I doesn't break down before them.

Joanne made a good point here which struck me pretty hard.

( I need to grow taller, or else how would I be able to find a girl soon ? )

I just realised that I need to start working on it already.... Damn it.