I wondered if you did it, brought it, read it. But still, I just don't know how to put my thoughts into words. But still, I hoped that you really brought it along with you. Well, i'll never know. The absence of you really changed the atmosphere. Life's never so boring. Well, it's not only me. I'll never know what you're thinking currently that's for sure.

I told you for a million times. You don't get it. It's either you're pretending or you're avoiding or maybe you just don't get it. Well, who knows. Gonna get used to it.

The day just ended off so quietly. Maybe it's not that long afterall. I'm deadbeat mentally, not physically. Straining or overdoing it might be able to numb it off alittle.

Well, P for paranoid is the word for today.

I feel the urge to sms her. Maybe I should. Maybe I shouldn't.